Doing the Unthinkable

I am keeping up with the work for school, even though, logically, I’m taking more units than I should. I’m ahead in one class. I’m a little behind in a second, but I’m keeping up with the instructor’s assignments. He’s a little behind. In a third class, I’m right on track.

With my fourth class, I’m struggling to get my thoughts together. I’ve been working on an essay for a while. I’ve submitted two drafts and I’ve had it kicked back twice with comments from the professor. The first one required major editing. The second one only requires a little bit of editing for the majority of the paper. It should take me less than an hour to crank out the paper. I have stalled. I can’t get thoughts going the right direction.

Thankfully, the instructor had mentioned that she would give an extension to anyone who needed one. I emailed her, and I got a response back immediately telling me to get some rest and to not think about it for 2 more days. There is a reason that I feel that I really clicked with this instructor. She knew exactly what I needed.

I have never asked for an extension before. This really is uncharted territory for me. I hope I get a decent grade on the paper after this. The goal is to pass!


When school started, so did the number of zoom meetings on my calendar. Eye strain and fatigue are problems, especially after reading and writing for each of the classes is accomplished.

One of my instructors started a 20/20/20 portion to the class meetings. Every 20 minutes, stare for 20 seconds at something that is at least 20 feet away. This seems to help a lot with eye strain and tension. He says it’s best to do it if you are looking at something beautiful, like a tree or the ocean. I end up looking at whatever is across the garage, since that’s where I usually do most of my classes.

It’s worth trying. I may have to paint something to hang 20 feet away, so I have something interesting to look at when I am staring.

What’s your stress level?

I was asked my stress level over a Zoom meeting. I didn’t know how to answer. Because of the pandemic, it’s different from moment to moment.

Right now? It’ll be different in twenty minutes. Tomorrow will be different than today.

I think this goes along with my “how are you” post from a few weeks ago. How are you? What’s your stress level? I think we still have several months of being honest.

This week’s meeting requests

This has been a high stress week for a variety of reasons. I have two just social meetings each week, and I used them to destress. I grabbed the leader of the first one and requested a no politics zone. She thought that was OK, as long as no one objected. It was a nice, stress free meeting.

I also requested the same for the other meeting. Again, it was greeted with acceptance. This group has done it before, so I knew it wouldn’t be an issue.

Discussing politics isn’t a bad thing, but with the chaos that happened yesterday, and the fact that these meetings are for lowering stress, we didn’t need to discuss what is stressful to many.

Next week, I’m sure it’ll be discussed, but, for this week, the group members can blow off steam on social media platforms instead.

Double booking myself

As many of you know, I live by my calendar. If it isn’t on the calendar, it probably doesn’t happen.

My phone had broken, and the replacement phone hadn’t come in yet, so I didn’t have my calendar readily available for a couple of days. I knew generally about what was coming up, but not really specifically.

I needed to get new tires on one car and oil changes on two. I scheduled one car’s oil change and the tire change for the same day and time so my daughter could drive her car in while I drove the other. I worked around her schedule, forgetting to look at my own.

I ended up doing a Zoom meeting for school at the auto repair place while trying to juggle the cars.

I managed this one by the skin of my teeth, but I did. It caused unnecessary anxiety, and I’m hoping to not try this one again. Less stress and anxiety this year, I hope.