Doing the Unthinkable

I am keeping up with the work for school, even though, logically, I’m taking more units than I should. I’m ahead in one class. I’m a little behind in a second, but I’m keeping up with the instructor’s assignments. He’s a little behind. In a third class, I’m right on track.

With my fourth class, I’m struggling to get my thoughts together. I’ve been working on an essay for a while. I’ve submitted two drafts and I’ve had it kicked back twice with comments from the professor. The first one required major editing. The second one only requires a little bit of editing for the majority of the paper. It should take me less than an hour to crank out the paper. I have stalled. I can’t get thoughts going the right direction.

Thankfully, the instructor had mentioned that she would give an extension to anyone who needed one. I emailed her, and I got a response back immediately telling me to get some rest and to not think about it for 2 more days. There is a reason that I feel that I really clicked with this instructor. She knew exactly what I needed.

I have never asked for an extension before. This really is uncharted territory for me. I hope I get a decent grade on the paper after this. The goal is to pass!

20/20/20

When school started, so did the number of zoom meetings on my calendar. Eye strain and fatigue are problems, especially after reading and writing for each of the classes is accomplished.

One of my instructors started a 20/20/20 portion to the class meetings. Every 20 minutes, stare for 20 seconds at something that is at least 20 feet away. This seems to help a lot with eye strain and tension. He says it’s best to do it if you are looking at something beautiful, like a tree or the ocean. I end up looking at whatever is across the garage, since that’s where I usually do most of my classes.

It’s worth trying. I may have to paint something to hang 20 feet away, so I have something interesting to look at when I am staring.

What’s your stress level?

I was asked my stress level over a Zoom meeting. I didn’t know how to answer. Because of the pandemic, it’s different from moment to moment.

Right now? It’ll be different in twenty minutes. Tomorrow will be different than today.

I think this goes along with my “how are you” post from a few weeks ago. How are you? What’s your stress level? I think we still have several months of being honest.

This week’s meeting requests

This has been a high stress week for a variety of reasons. I have two just social meetings each week, and I used them to destress. I grabbed the leader of the first one and requested a no politics zone. She thought that was OK, as long as no one objected. It was a nice, stress free meeting.

I also requested the same for the other meeting. Again, it was greeted with acceptance. This group has done it before, so I knew it wouldn’t be an issue.

Discussing politics isn’t a bad thing, but with the chaos that happened yesterday, and the fact that these meetings are for lowering stress, we didn’t need to discuss what is stressful to many.

Next week, I’m sure it’ll be discussed, but, for this week, the group members can blow off steam on social media platforms instead.

Doing a favor for a friend

A friend asked me to do a favor for her at 4 am today. I said no problem. Alarms all set, I went to sleep. I woke up at 1 am, and realized that it was possible she meant 4 am Eastern time. Yup! Thankfully, I realized it in plenty of time to get it done. Now I get to sleep in, feeling accomplished.

In theory, that is. I got the order done, but the card I tried to use didn’t want to work, so I had to fully wake up to figure out why and what to do. Then I tried to email her the confirmation that I’d accomplished my middle of the night task, but my address book on my email account decided that it wasn’t going to work. I had to hand type her email address in. Thankfully, I knew it, but suddenly blanked on if it was yahoo or gmail. I guessed right.

Of course, by then I had to get up and use the bathroom, because what else does one do in the middle of the night?

I got back in bed and had to find extra blankets since our heatwave finally broke and my toes were cold.

I didn’t eat much dinner because I wasn’t hungry at dinner time. I don’t want to get up and eat at this time of night because I don’t want to let my stomach think that it’s an option. I’ll drink water, so I’ll have to get up and use the bathroom again in an hour or so.

I don’t know where my purse is with my kindle on it, and I don’t want to fall asleep with my reading light on, so I decided to write here instead of read. It didn’t make me tired, though. I think I’m going to have to bite the bullet and find the purse.

Now that I’ve found the purse by getting up and turning on the light, I should be fully awake.

And I just remembered that my daughter reminded me right before bedtime that I told her I’d drive her and a friend somewhere with no parking in the morning. At least her version of morning starts closer to noon than most people’s version of morning.

It’s 2 am now. I am going to stop writing and read for a little while. Hopefully I’m tired enough that a little while won’t take me to morning. Goodnight!

Quitting a Challenge

(quitting a challenge)

The article linked above talks about the stress of the annual challenge on Goodreads.  I understand what the author is going through.  A couple of years ago, I knew I wasn’t going to meet my challenge, so I started stressing about it.  I would hide away and read every moment I could.  Finally, during one of my rants, I had someone tell me,  “What will happen if  you don’t meet your challenge?”  Well, honestly, nothing.  Other than feeling disappointment in myself, nothing would happen if I missed my goal.  Life got in the way that year.  There wasn’t anything I could do about it.  Reading should be enjoyable, not stressful.

I do disagree with the author in that I don’t think that audiobooks are cheating, as she claims.  When I make my goal for the year, I set it with all books in mind.  Audiobooks are part of my count.  So are children’s books.  Now, I am not going to read the children’s books just to up my count.  I am reading them because I hadn’t read them before.  Audiobooks are counted since I finish one every two or three weeks.  I only listen to them in the car, so my time is limited to times that I am in the car alone.

I also disagree with the author because rereads count in the challenge.  Whenever you mark a book as read, as long as you put the date in as a date that is within the challenge time, it counts.

I don’t judge the author for quitting.  If something is stressing you out, and you can change that something, change it.  If that means quitting a self-imposed challenge, quit it.  Do what you need to do to make your life less stressful.